have a little faith

you can't drink a sip until you drink half a sip and so on... thats philosophy as it concerns all those who love their coffee.  

I have never been so excited about life. ok, so one hiccup, I haven't been writing much...well at all since I started school. I love writing more than almost anything but I've just been to busy. Yet, one very good thing I've gotten from these past months, I realized I do love to write. I could almost go as far as saying I want to be a writer. Yes, I have a ton to learn about writing and I need much more practice but its amazing to realize you might actually have a knack for something. Fingering out my future before college definitely was not my knack, and I even took a somewhat impulsive semester off. When I was in high school (class VP, honor roll, yearbook editor) I look like I had it together, and at the end of the year when I got up in front of my classmates proclaiming that I'd decided not to go to college right away (being the only one to do such a thing) my classmates quickly took that to mean I was pregnant. My teachers adamantly advised me to change my mind about this, "you have such promise" they said, "if you don't go right away, I'm afraid you'll never go!"Wow, with few words I went from being a put together young woman to pregnant and unmotivated. Have a little faith people! I think we all should have more faith. Faith in ourselves and in Life. We think if we don't do this or that, if we don't plan and predict our life will fall apart. I don't have anything agains planning if thats what makes you happy, but I think doing what makes you happy is the most important thing. Believe that life will all turn out. IF you let it, it will. I strongly believe this, as long as you make choices based on your own happiness. I am in school, I have a good job, I have a car, I have a home and several people have shown up in my life to encourage my writing. I go to the gym at least 5 times a week and I've never been so interested in doing homework. Three months ago I had no idea where my life was heading, I had nothing and no plan. Now I have so much, life is generous. Even the horrible times are a gift for growth.