Happy?

Being human is interesting. I can be an extremely positive person. At times I can be incredibly excited about life and what I'm doing. When I'm in bed trying to sleep, my mind buzzes with creative ideas that (would obviously change my llife!!) and I become very thrilled and self-important, thinking I'm brilliant and I can do anything.
I love that feeling, but it never works out the way I envision. My ideas are usually much harder to do than I think, they don't work out the way I hope, or else I don't get around to finishing or making them happen. I can quixotic but in turn I can also be very pessimistic. In this blog I am usually in a positive animated mood when I create a post. I guess no matter who you are, there will be down times. It is amazing how good it feels to feel creative and positive. Yet, when I am depressed, its not that easy to jump out of it. I'll notice that I'm feeling awful, negative and moody, I'll think, Gee... this sucks, but I still can't climb right out of it, ironically self-pitty is almost  an addictive state even though it feels uncomfortable and exasperating. In that state nothing seems like it will work, creativity seems foolish, everything around you seems annoying. Emotions are interesting phenomena. The contemporary psychological theory of motivation suggests that we are primarily motivated by emotion. Humans are the only organisms which have such complex and self-consious emotions; guilt, pride, self-doubt, embarrassment, hopelessness. Often we don't even know why we are experiencing the emotions we're feeling. Sometimes we allow an emotion to exaggerate whatever small thing triggered the anger or despair.

 Some people have much more reason to cry, become disheartened or give up, yet we are all human. Even wealthy, healthy, fortunate people have volitive chemicals playing around in their brains. All humans have emotion and have sensitivities. All humans experience feeling stressed, disappointed, lonely and lost. It is important to recognize that no matter how rich or poor or powerful, we are all human, and for the most part we all feel pain. It is  tremendously  hard to have compassion for those who are arrogant, selfish and those who complain when they are so obviously privileged. I believe that all humans no matter who or where you come from desire happiness and those who are wealthy and  grandiose have just as much trouble finding true happiness and retaining it as do those struggling to make ends meet. We are in the same boat, the pompous jut don't realize that, "lasting happiness" cant be bought, embezzled or lobbied.