Super mom

I remember the first time I saw my mom as a person. Until then of course I thought she was just a mom, born a mom, always a mom, put here on earth to be my mom, a super hero, who changed dippers, had eyes on the back of her head, mind reading abilities and the power to cure any hurt with a kiss and Winnie the Pooh bandaid. Suddenly I was staring at this woman, so much bigger then me, such a huge part of my world, and I saw that she was not just a mother. I saw that the world wasn't revolving around me, it was incredible, I felt like the world had flipped and I literally saw everything upside down. The black and white tiled floor of the Foodland bakery was swirling above my head. It scared the hell out of me. I could no longer blame her for not being perfect, no longer expect her to always be right, because she was just a human being, just as messed up as the rest of us. Its much more comfortable to see her just as a mother, but its much more fun, interesting and satisfying to see her as a woman, no different then me.

Over and over we put people into categories or stereotypes. Why do we not see everyone as human beings? Recently I have become frustrated that people judge me by my age. I am guilty until proven innocent. Guilty of being an immature, superficial teenager of the 21st century. Life's way of helping me to understand worse stereotyping and inequality, in a small way. It is okay that we sometimes judge others by appearance, or age, or category, it is human nature. And since it is happening it must be okay. As Life has assured me, everything that happens, should happen, because it has. Life works in wise ways most of us can't understand but we should never worry because she has control over everything. But why is it in our nature to judge? I don't know. Honestly I don't know if it is our nature or it is learned, but I believe it is fear that causes us to judge others...or anything different from us. The important thing, I think, is to allow yourself to consciously look deeper into everyone, past their masks or steryotypes and past your initial judgments.