Can you hear Life laughing

I recently heard a quote "At the end of the day we realize we can endure much more then we ever thought possible" this is so true. Life knows this better then even we do. I have finally grown up enough now to see that suffering is Life's gift. I had always thought that picturing pain as a good thing was just something one said to the young in order to make life seem less awful. But Life is not awful, she, with the help of experience do everything they can to help us grow up. I also love the quote "you know you have grown up only when you are able to laugh at yourself." I asked life if we must always suffer, I asked if evolving always has to be so painful. She said Gad, no my dear, the trials will never cease but your suffering can, if you would all just stop taking Me so seriously. If you would all just stop taking yourself so seriously. If you listen you will hear me laughing with compassion at  the superficial and the grave way you perceive Me. Laugh with Me, and never stop.

I had so many more questions but Life hushed me and said I will tell you more but first I want you to trust me and let my proposal guide you in your trials at hand and then you tell me if I have misspoken. "Are you saying to laugh at my problems, and which problems do you speak of?" I ask Life. Yes Life answered, do not let them make you suffer, and I speak of your mothers cancer, the sadness in your heart you think is caused by Johnny and whatever else you see as a problem. "But aren't they problems?" They are whatever you choose to see them as.

My situation with Johnny, my best friend who had kissed me, bringing up attraction for him I'd forgotten I'd had, the situation ending in him admit it had all been a mistake. I guess it was sort of silly. His actions and words had hurt me but I was much luckier then him. I was the one who got to be kissed and didn't have any regrets. Of course he didn't like me as I liked him but why must we expect something for giving love, love should be free. He must be doubly confused as I, so I should laugh at my selfishness. He is perplexed about how he feels in general and about me, where as I know how I feel about him. If he wants to be a silly boy and let a beautiful, wonderful girl like me get away then so be it. All that matters is that I love me. So I can continue to love him as a friend no matter what he chooses to do. It is freeing.